“The rain pours. I have put us in and put us out until I feel like a worn concertina…but at last, the fire began to burn the sticks, the kettle began to boil, the sun began to shine, and I began a new chapter.”
At February’s end, we swing between seasons. As if navigating a bi-polar range, I’m excited about the growing season, frantic with feeling behind/inadequate/overwhelmed, then by turns lethargic—sunken by the chill, the damp, the rain.
It’s a tough time of year and I’m feeling it. Vicissitude. Lassitude. Angst.
Much is changing in the garden: we’ve put up a small greenhouse. Raised beds have been razed. Trees topped, trimmed, or taken away. Lawn will soon be scraped away. Gates made. A studio space conjured. A cold storage room claimed.
And so, quite quickly, Cultivated is expanding—not on schedule, not tidily, properly or even smartly or sequentially—just leaping forward on hope. And despite the adage ‘you have to break some eggs to make an omelette’, I’m smarting at the loss of past spaces, past securities: the corn salad I would normally be eating in abundance at this time of year; the early spring sowings I can’t make…
Given the chaos outside, I’m thankful for the deadlines I can meet. When you want things to move faster and they don’t—when you lean in, make calls, plans—or sow seeds without a place to plant them, fret over plant shipments someday soon to arrive—the predictable, the fixed, the things in life that hold you in place…these certainties lend structure and calm to the days.
Walk the dog. Teach. Write. Read. Mark. Repeat.
Since my last newsletter two columns are up on the site, one local about February blooms in Oak Bay, the other seasonal, promoting alternatives to roses for Valentine’s day. This latter piece helped to re-invigorate me, as does hearing from flower friends and potential customers. Yes, we need local flowers! And as small as I feel some days, I’m grateful to be growing.
PS Until things settle down here, I won’t be hosting any workshops, but I may be looking for an intern later in the spring. I’ll post a job description when the time comes. Thanks to everyone for your interest and support!